Lady Bird

[reposted from Letterboxd with minor edits]

The scene that got me:

Lady Bird: I just wish.. I just.. I wish that you liked me

Mom: Of course I love you

Lady Bird: But do you like me..

If we really meditated on it, isn't this how we fear a conversation with God would go? We can't stand the thought of the answer being "no" so we don't dare ask or even entertain it.

Then later, frustrated and desperate yelling at her mom.

Lady Bird: I know, I'm so bad! But please talk to me - just talk to me.

Saying what she thinks her mom wants to hear, yet revealing she really wants to know she's not abandoned.

These two scene sum up a barrier between us and God - our doubts that we can take him at his word, that he could possibly be as good as he says he is, love us and like us as much as he tells us he does.

I can't help but end this the way James KA Smith would: "...a voice you love whispers hello"